As for those with a seeming warped sense of perfection, as you mention below, Their "difference" is the "comparison" by which perfection is perceived on the human level. They can't take anything away from someone else's perfection to make their own. You must understand that with all the different personal opinions, there is the total of all the separate concepts that make up the "human thought and feeling" judgmental acquiring "self image". All is One and even every individual quality makes up that one. Remember that the reasoning mind cannot "know" of any individual quality that constitutes "good" or "bad" without the conscious awareness of it's opposite. This is the separateness that causes all of life's problems....drifting from one side to the other...always in the act of comparison. When you see that God is sometimes found in hell by those who undergo a dramatic spiritual transformation, you will understand that mere human concepts of good and evil are the manifestation of man's thoughts striving to know of something that cannot be "thought". In this realm of "no thought" is the origin and place of the existence of all being perfect and separate from human opinion. The "need" to feel "right" about anything is predicated by a feeling of wanting to be free from the roller coaster ride of human opinions and concepts. "Right" just can't be found by mere thought. It is the origin of the "good we perceive of" that we seek and not just the effects. If you were the only person on earth who had the pure realization of Truth, it would not matter what the rest of the world thought of you. Your consciousness would make everything so crystal clear in understanding that these earthly human thought qualities would be known like children having not yet experienced the yearning to learn about their purpose. After all, the only real thing you have to live with on this earth is yourself and in being alone with God, there is never any loneliness. You become the friend of all without needing friends. You become the servant of all in having all of your needs fulfilled without needing anything apart from the conscious presence of God. You realize that supply is not something we get but rather something we give. In this state of spiritual maturity is the recognition of All as being Perfect.

All is well,

Bob

Having gone through some of the same feelings as you describe below at the end of this letter, I will try to clarify some things for you that may start the process of a deeper understanding. You may need to read what I say many times. I know you are extremely intelligent and have all within you that you need to overcome some of your present difficulties. Nothing that I ever say can be a process of "putting in". The Truth within your own being is the thing that imparts the understanding. Recognition of the Truth or God within occurs as enlightenment as one reads and understands beyond the mere words I say.

When you say, "the belief that theirs is the only true way to come to a real relationship with the truth of existence.", it seems that you are seeing more than one belief. An individual interpretation of the ONE belief is what constitutes one's experience and therefore sometimes becomes a mental picture of that experience that some may interpret as "their" belief. The human race is made up of individual material bodies, all different. We identify ourselves as a member of that human race and rarely exclude any because of their physical differences. The Truth of a spiritual experience is that in seeing and knowing, there is only ONE of ALL there is. Spiritual experience is what you are looking for and only in that experience will your Understanding grow to the point of the questions coming to answer all which you presently lack complete understanding. There is nothing to do that is measured by right or wrong but in the "letting go" of the questions prevailing in your thoughts. It is the "calling" that lets a spiritual journey unfold and never human reasoning.

When you say, "but now I feel stuck, blocked by the inability to "settle" for any subjective way of approaching a true and felt relationship with my core divinity & what it's a part of.", you are recognizing, as I did once, that Truth doesn't come in one package. If it did, "your" experience of divinity would only be conceived in your human consciousness completely differently than anyone else's, therefore making it a "different" truth as interpreted. The "Truth" is not in the human understanding or interpretation but in gradually growing in spiritual understanding until the "Source" of that Truth becomes the experience. Human experience always defines something in the reasoning mind as a "Truth". Going beyond the mere human feelings of that experience gives us the total and true spiritual understanding of the "thing" that has defined that experience. "The Kingdom of God is within you" and with it comes the spiritual discernment of knowing the Source of all you presently hunger for. God is not in holy temples or holy mountains but in the "still small voice". The word God has as many interpretations as the number of people on this earth...and more. But at the same time, God is ALL that constitutes the ONE. Everyone's experience of a solidified positive change associated with the "name" of God constitutes their experience with divinity on the human level. But it is much more that you are seeking. You are seeking divinity on the spiritual level. God is "I Am". Certainly not the human " I am" but the "I Am" of your true identity. Sometimes in my spiritual counseling, there comes a release "from" thought in the person I am talking to. It is what takes the place of thought that hints of enlightenment. Just as one would know his own house so well as to know it in the dark in the same way as in the light, the invisible becomes visible in "consciousness". But this can never occur as long as you hold on to a belief that you need optical light to see.

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A dedicated spiritual journey requires non-attachment and non-dependency of things of the human existence. This is why the type of spiritual journey that this book is about will only appeal to people like those in their 50's and older, whose children are grown and whose careers have mellowed out with less importance placed on them, those with no children, the lonely, depressed, those who have had unusual spiritual experiences, those who feel misplaced in this world, those who feel led to something more important than this human existence, and those who feel the "Presence" of something guiding them - whether it be in the form of a spiritual voice, aliens or higher and more intelligent life forms, spiritual apparitions, or a vision of some type of higher being, all as loving presences.

This book is an account of my wife Gail and my personal 22 year spiritual journey and experiences.  If someone who reads this book has not come as far as we have, they will grow from it,  If someone has come further than we have, it will be old news, but interesting reading.  Most who have come far in their spiritual journey understand the following two statements; "I and my Father are One."  God is ALL", including everything we are aware of that He is and everything we are NOT aware of that He is, or as I once heard someone say "God is everything He is and everything is isn't."