"You can't live on yesterday's manna." The only way to keep the spiritual journey new is to "pray without ceasing." The journey is always new and always shines brightly. The individual components that come into our lives from the journey are meant only for the "now". That is why I and you (as you told me) always experience re-reading books as seemingly new in their content.

No one is actually mentally aware of what their work or purpose really is. They are only aware that they are "on track" with something. I sometimes think of my own split in consciousness as schizophrenia. "I of mine own self can do nothing". Some may say that my mind created this "other self" or "higher self" because my own feelings of lack of comprehension and the thoughts of "imperfections" would prevent me from being any more than I actually thought I was. But I tend to say "what caused this split to happen?". I certainly could not do it myself, nor would I want to. After all, I am just fine as I am and perfectly capable of understanding things as I want to. Imperfection seems to destroy itself by dissolving its own veil of misunderstanding.

I'm not a tax expert, a psychologist, a problem solver, or advice giver. I see beyond the things that causes one to seek help in any form. All I know is what I have experienced. What happens to anyone from that experience can't change what never existed in the first place.

Sometimes, one may desire to put a hand through the window to higher consciousness and bring something back into this human experience that will change or benefit situations. It doesn't happen. Our conceptual beliefs can change our attitudes and take the burden of fear and anxiety away but the REALIZATION of how this world operates puts one into a state of consciousness that makes "everything" of day to day living insignificant in comparison to the state of being that is the very presence of all we seek. The dark clouds of fearful thoughts and insecurities always drift away after the storm and we are left with the benefits of the refreshing rain it brought. Fear, like the violence of the storm, prevents us from realizing what the storm is actually bringing. We don't sit back and say, "the horrible storm brought us the refreshing rain" but rather we believe that there are two powers working - one needed and one unwanted. Is it really that our good feelings after the storm are just a sigh of relief that nothing happened to us to warrant our fears? Do we not carry this into everything in our lives? We fear and then the fear goes and we relish in the feelings of "winning" protection from that which we feared. The truth is that there was never anything to be protected from. Some may say that this takes our "Santa Claus" away and "where do we go when we want to feel taken care of?". This is why we put ourselves through adversities.....so that we may GAIN something in this human experience. We really don't want a "garden of Eden"....That would stop the ups and downs that we thrive on.

If one is looking to take a truth and prove it right or wrong, it will always be proven to be exactly what one wants it to be. Questioning hopes to gain enough knowledge about something to prove its existence.....and then we judge whether it is good or bad. What a confusing state of being this is. One then says, I don't "FEEL" what you are telling me. Of course you do, you are too busy trying to understand and can't accept without it. The mind is rejecting the things that you won't pass judgment on. The mind will hold on to its job....at any cost...even your existence and life on this earth. But somewhere and at sometime, a split occurs....and there we are seeing our life here from another realm. We are no longer feeling...we are being. This is where all the knowledge of creation and existence reside. It is my lord without being anything that I am not already. It cannot be thought into existence....it always comes from the opposite of logic. It comes from giving up rather than gaining, from disbelieving rather than believing, from doubt rather than faith, from rejecting rather than accepting, and from throwing away all concepts rather than trying to gain new ones in respect to the operations of this human earthly world. No, it is not denying this world but only opening our inner sight to the truth of this world as being only a small experience of our total being.

One must savor these words in order to have them penetrate beyond reason. Please re-read until they glow and you glow.

Steve, some of the things that have happened to me have given me an insight not too far removed from what some may call clairvoyance. I don't know if you are familiar with Edgar Cayce but some of what I experience now is similar to his life. Once I get my human personality out of the way, something else starts working that would have been unbelievable to me in years past. Some of the things we briefly discussed about your father may not seem the perfectly logical solution to the appearing problems but human life gets us into appearing negative situations in the most illogical manner.

I like to make comparisons and analogies to obtain a better understanding of every human situation. Computer systems, for example, and all the variations of applications....each with their own value and the operator knowing it as well as the language they speak. Every expert in this field sees the total computer industry from a narrow perspective. As for me, my world lies only in web design. I know nothing, at the most, about your expertise. Personal interest and attraction motivates us to pursue what our natural talents are telling us. It is not the web design that really attracts me but the ability to communicate how I can help others with the talents I have. I mention all of this in this paragraph because of your great love for your work. You see, money is not my motivator. Once I discovered how to live with the greatest inner peace that one could know and let the source of this peace guide my life, new importances took over. Seeming illogical reasoning put me in a position of wanting for nothing except to assist others in their need as far as my talents and abilities could help them. The minute I released my struggle to "get" things and situations in this life by exchanging my former desires for this inner peace I speak of, I found that all things seem to be drawn to me, however, in a way that it did not matter whether I had them or not. So why wouldn't I want all the riches in the world like everyone else? Because the things the riches can give, I already have......it is the feelings of what the riches can do and the obtaining things and goals that people want...not the riches themselves. When I discovered these "inner" riches and threw my desires away....., all the things I used to "work" to get started coming into my life beyond my imagination. Of course these things are not nearly as important as my purpose in life. I find I give away much of what comes to me because nothing is really mine to be possessed but enjoyed in whatever way that helps complete my purpose.

Two years ago I knew absolutely nothing about computers. My early professional background was in sales and marketing. Like you, I was in the insurance business for a while back in the 60s. What knowledge I have about the Internet and web design came from "figuring it out myself".

Your father at his age and condition finds it difficult to start over. Living in the past can only bring comparisons to the present....and this can create negative or positive emotions based on what that past was. I just thought of something this evening about health...The real truth is that one can only find health in sickness. When we have health there is no reason to seek what we already have and it really never crosses our mind. The health one finds may not be a replacement of what seems to have been lost but things have a way of balancing out this human life....Like I told you, my seeming bad physical health has been "replaced" with a "spiritual" health I never knew existed. So I consider myself healthier than I have ever been. Peace and fulfillment are an actual reality to me and not just some dream. If you start by seeing the real health of your father, this type of consciousness will penetrate his and I promise you things will begin to change in his life and yours.

Keep me informed about you father...Even though I don't actually know him...the link between you and I and your relationship to him will work. No magic here, just the truth of spiritual existence and practicing the presence of something most consider "illogical".

Bob

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It was revealed to me that most understandings are based on good and bad or light and darkness. This is where the false belief in two powers come from. But if you think about it for just a minute, total light with the absence of "darkness" in the form of shadows and shades would be "nothing" but a "bright darkness". We see darkness in the light and light in the darkness. Without the other there is "nothing". I recently told someone who was suffering from an affliction that the only place one can find health is in sickness. We never think about good health when it is our total consciousness. So, actually in this state of consciousness, good health doesn't exist....it just IS. It is the thought and belief that there is some other power that can cancel out its opposite that causes the reality of all of man's discords. But in reality, the way the human mind works is that all seeming "good" is based on the existence of "bad". In our human reasoning, we really can't conceive of one without the other.

Bob Gupton

I was very sorry to hear about your father's passing. Don't ever think that your grieving could have any effect on his eternal consciousness. We all choose to make the transition to the other side. There is much love in grieving. It is the way of letting go and still remembering all the good things. Many have guilt feelings or regrets of some kind because of the desire to continue expressing love to the one who has passed on. Just because we don't see them any more doesn't mean they are not still receiving our love and caring. It is always the invisible that feels stronger than the visible. Remember that it is knowing the invisible that makes us aware and not the physical workings of the human senses. The feeling of missing someone who has passed away comes from their eternal being and is their way of expressing love to us.

You are in my thoughts and prayers. Gail and I express our sincerest condolences about your father.

I believe you are on the brink of your enlightenment. Of course, none of us really has any qualifications, mental capacity, or desires of our own. When one relinquishes their seeming ownership of their life as their own, their eternal being awakens in the human consciousness......Telling you exactly why your life has been composed as it has up to this point. Let the human mind and its purpose of taking care of your earthly body rest and continue to do its perfect job. You are in the center of your world and the viewpoint you are taking is from a shifted perspective. Waking up can sometimes be confusing to the reasoning mind. It seems to be saying that it wants to continue to be in charge of your life just as it has been up to this point. It is the familiarity of your existence that cries to hold on and let go at the same time.

There is no time or space that separates the one consciousness. There is no one place one resides. You are only familiar with the time and place of your human existence right now. These doubts and longings to be one with who you "are" are simply the birth canal of your spiritual birth. EXPERIENCE is NOT just knowing about something....You are always what you are seeking. There is nothing outside of yourself to be brought in or changed. Knowing and experiencing the perfection of "being" puts you into being the experience of what your mind is longing for.

What expressed yourself in your letter? Was it someone with diminished interests, qualifications, mental capacity, or desires? On the contrary, it was someone expressing all of those qualities. Don't ever let your mind fool you into believing you are anything less than who you really are.

Let your eternal being continue giving you all the questions.....He gave you all the answers some time ago

I am sometimes requested to "make someone a cup of coffee" to help them become fully awake to their real identity. You have had your cup now....Let me know if you need another.

Bob

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In reading your request, I find that you could be right on the edge of receiving the spiritual realization you need for your healing. You just want to know how to get over that "edge".

Many practitioners rely on just "knowing the truth about one's being" to effect a change in a condition. But sometimes there is a need for the person to express the effects or fear. If this is something you think you need to do with me, I will listen. I know from experience that this healing you are looking for will not come from anything psychological. So, how you many feel may not always be what you believe. You may need something to heal a condition of the "mind" at the same time. You see, the natural human mind reacts only to the sensory organs of the body. You can't find the opposite of your condition within the confines of your reactive mind. All you are going through is perfectly natural and it is impossible to be right or wrong about anything. All you need do is to follow where I will be taking you.

When one plants a seed in the ground and sees no immediate growth does not mean everything in the earth that the seed needs to become a plant is not working. Proof of change is always "after the fact". Experience is the only teacher of patience. Albert Einstein once said that insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results. So, now we need to identify the change you want to experience and know the truth about your real Self which will lift you into a "new" sense or awareness of understanding. Joel said you can never meet a problem on the level of problem.

There many people who have the attitude of wanting the results before a realization. This is natural because it is how the human mind learns things so they can be repeated or avoided. Like the man who was freezing as he stared at the fireplace with the attitude of thinking, "Give me some heat and I'll put in some wood". Many times one would rather freeze than realize the truth that they already know. The truth then would be that they are totally occupied with proving their negative thoughts rather than proving the positive solution to their need.

I don't give anyone a hope of a positive change occurring in their life. I lift a person's consciousness up to a level of understanding to know what the seeming problem really is. It's easy to say "words" of promise or hope. In many cases, it may help a person feel better temporarily. But I don't think you want temporary help here. Neither do l do "something" that makes you believe there is a power that will overcome some other power. REAL CHANGE occurs from UNDERSTANDING, not faith in an unknown or in another person's understanding. If you really want the change, allow me to show you how this understanding is realized in you.

So this is how we will start. You will be on a journey in consciousness to a place where there is all you seek. In this place is all that you may have forgotten and that you once knew before you were placed in this human life.

In this place is the peace that is beyond human understanding. In this place is YOU as you have always been. In this place you will find answers to all your questions (both realized and unrealized questions). In this place you will understand that this human life is not all there is nor is it as important as you once thought. In this place you will see your human life as you would your own child, full of love and willingness to effect happiness and peace. In this place you will know why this human part of your existence is happening and why enlightenment occurred at this particular time. This place you may already know as God but have seen only through a veil of human understanding.

All you need do now is to tell me if you want me to help you get to "This Place". You are already there but the human condition currently prevents you from knowing it. It would be helpful if you told me what books or tapes you have by Joel.

Just write back and tell and ask me whatever you feel led to. Just see me as the pilot of an airplane that will fly you to exactly where you want to go.

All is well,

Bob